Up until a few months ago, I hadn’t experienced a book rut in so long that I was beginning to forget what it felt like. I started this blog back in January and after a bit of a rocky start, felt like I had finally found a good balance between work, family, reading, and blogging/reviewing. Fast forward to mid June, I turned 31 (hurray for birthdays!) and I found myself in the deepest reading rut I can ever remember having. I had a few back to back experiences with books I was sent to review that just did not resonate with me, and I couldn’t finish them. Not finishing a book is a bit of a new thing for me, and not something I would have even considered in the past. But these days, time is a valuable and rare commodity, and spending time finishing a book I’m just not feeling is simply not a luxury I can afford.
A few days went by, then weeks, then months. I was feeling completely at odds with my own lack of desire to pick up a book and get lost in it. Reading is such a huge part of who I am and without it, I didn’t really feel like myself. I was exhausted, moody, and spending the majority of my day flashing between blinding hunger and raging nausea. If those sound like really extreme and random symptoms of a book rut, it’s because they totally are. Turns out that on top of being in a rut, I was… pregnant! This is my fourth (and I feel I must say it, FINAL) pregnancy, so I had a general idea of what I was getting into. At least I thought I did…. for whatever reason, this current pregnancy really knocked me on my ass. For the rest of June and into July I listened to a few audiobooks, but only managed to sit down and read one physical book.
I had so many books pending review and I felt like I couldn’t start anything that I really wanted to read because of that. I got in my own way for a while and finally said screw it, and in August I picked up Lady Midnight. I had heard so many great things about it and had been wanting to read it since I got it for my birthday. Picking up a book to read just because I wanted to, and not because I owed someone a review for it was a big relief and exactly what I needed to end the rut. I flew through Lady Midnight (and LOVED it) and then came Harry Potter and the Cursed Child. It’s been pretty smooth sailing since then with a steady flow of physical and audiobooks.
I haven’t had a chance to actually review any of my recent reads, and I haven’t done a wrap-up post since June, but I’m working on it. I think I was so excited to be reviewing books that I took on way more than I could handle and just got overwhelmed by it for a little while. Also, the whole first trimester pregnancy thing. I put the all of the pending stuff on hold for a bit while I get through some stuff that’s been on my TBR forever. I’ll ease back into review copies when the time is right, and this time I think I’ll stick to requesting one at a time.
I’m going to apologize in advance for flooding your feeds over the next few days as I try to get some wrap up posts out as well as some preparation posts for DEWEY’S 24 HOUR READATHON! For those who may not know, it’s happening this coming Saturday, the 22nd. If you’re participating, let me know!
Also, Gemina is out tomorrow and I preordered it and it’s on its way to me right now and I cannot even begin to contain my excitement. Is staying home to await the arrival of a new book in the mail a valid reason to call out from work? Asking for a friend.